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2014-05-08 12:20 pm

out of the night that covers me

I haven't been updating at all lately huh? That's kinda sad, and lazy, of me but the main reason is that I found myself preferring to write on actual paper, like how I've done from elementary to high school. It's nice. I like the privacy of a diary that only I could read. Plus, I could actually practice coloring and drawing there, and it's the most I've drawn since like, 2010 and APH.

Here's a couple of pages!

tw: blood for the other page )
I wish I could write a short thing for TABI PO because it's so amazing. Also, has anybody seen THE AMAZING SPIDERMAN 2, because I wasn't really going to watch it but then Dane DeHaan's face happened and I kinda want to watch it for the pretty Harry Osborn...

Dane DeHaan aka that dude from Chronicle (2012)
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2014-01-13 08:11 am
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Thirteen Days Past

Happy New Year! A bit late greeting as it’s thirteen days past but the feeling’s still there, guys, I believe it is. (Also, I had Internet problems haha). You may have noticed that I haven’t been blogging much, and that’s a pity, but there’s something daunting in actually sitting down to write a journal entry… I don’t know. I feel like I can’t be as silly here like I get in tumblr, especially. It’s like I actually have to write in complete sentences and correct punctuation, holla. But yeah, enough musing and let’s get to some stuff that happened during the holidays!

So basically I got a 13-day Christmas break from work, due to overlapping national holidays and my boss’ frequent leaves from work. That’s almost two weeks and wow. What have I done with that? I could’ve travelled or something but I didn’t, I did things not as physically exciting but ultimately pretty fulfilling I gotta say.

I read. I read like hell. I finished three books in a 13-day period which is not bad for me! And I’m halfway through another one about monks killing monks. Very exciting! I missed reading so much. Plus, my room was newly-painted a cool shade of lilac, which is ok, and some repositioning of furniture was done, so I could sit on the bed and read by sunlight when I open the windows! The view is nothing much, it’s just the neighbor’s wall, but it’s perfect for reading, especially around the afternoon, when the light’s cooler. I loved waking up late and taking a long shower; I missed having my own room to walk naked in, not having to dress in a cramped bathroom; I missed the feel of my books, which I had to rearrange because for a couple of days they were strewn around the floor; I got to eat some real food and not some fast-food take-away, while playing video games until 4 in the morning. 13 days without the internet was challenging – I can’t randomly search the history of the book I’m reading – but it was surprisingly easy. I’m not saying I’m ok with giving it up, but I know I’ll live, because there are so many things to do!

Christmas, New Year's and my brother's home! )
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2013-08-09 07:34 pm

also i broke my ehd

Starting a new blog post with a whiny rant under a read more. I wrote this on a journal like a year ago but I’m feeling it again and really, I’m too lazy to describe it again so I’ll just post it.

Anyway enough of that crap and let me bullet point stuff I’ve been doing this past month!
  • My roommate and I made a pact to finish all previous seasons of Breaking Bad before part 2 of season 5 starts in August 11. We’ve been at this for like two weeks now and we’re still at Season 4!! We’ve got like three days to finish 7 episodes plus part 1 of season 5, whew. Thank the gods today is a holiday!
  • Speaking of which, EID MUBARAK to everyone celebrating! (I seriously love my country, we get Christian and Muslim national holidays off ahh)
  • Finished season 2 of Boardwalk Empire, halfway done with season 3. I need more Rothstein.
  • I’M WATCHING ONGOING ANIME AFTER A LONG TIME?? Right now I’m into Shingeki no Kyojin and Free! So anybody who wants to talk about those, just hit me up!
  • I LOVE JEAN KIRSCHTEIN. I unironically sail every ship that he is in, Jean/Marco, Jean/Eren, Jean/Mikasa, Jean/Armin, basically Jean with everybody. Annie is a close second in my heart.
  • It’s so hard to say which of the swimming boys I love most, maybe Nagisa and Rei, but I love them all really. Rn I just want to see Samezuka-buchou in a speedo.
  • This is an important public service announcement: Welcome to Night Vale has swallowed my corporeal being. I can’t believe how attached I am to Cecil, like when did this happen.
  • I don’t know how I manage to juggle all these fandoms with two hands, possibly some tentacles, but I’m managing. It’s fun!
  • Oh and how could I forget: PACIFIC RIM. I’m brimming with ideas and I’m going to write semi-historical fic because that’s my jam.

Book update:

I am really behind on my reading list this year. I may not be able to finish the 50 book milestone I set for myself and I may whittle that down to a manageable 30. I’m currently juggling a couple of books too, as is my usual behaviour.
  • Finally got around to reading Les Miserables after all the heart-breaking ExRfanfiction I devoured a month ago. Something about modern AUs for the Les Amis and college friendships make me wish I had a tight-knit group growing up. Ah, I want to rec fanfics of these, but would anyone even be interested?
  • The thing is, my paperback of Les Mis is pretty inconvenient to bring along all the time, so I also have it on this tab that I use as a reader. Basically I’m simultaneously reading two different translations. I wish I just knew French.
  • I am slowly moving forward with Moby Dick. Very, very slowly.
  • And I also read a handful of HP Lovecraft’s short stories courtesy of this, because of Night Vale. IT’S GREAT. AND CREEPY. And I’m pretty sure one of them is anti-alcohol Prohibition Era propaganda.
  • Bought A Separate Peace and All Quiet on the Western Front for PHP90 a piece!

That’s mostly all for now, and I do hope I get to post more often. Hit me up on tumblr, maybe, I’m pretty much always there 
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2013-06-25 06:04 pm

this one's in tagalog

I promise that one of these days I'll post a proper entry, but today is not that day. Time for some Tagalog ranting.

pissed off at intentionally incorrect tagalog grammar: a story )
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2013-05-20 10:11 am

under the weather over the sails

I’ve been under the weather these past two weeks, what with doubled workload and unpaid overtime hours. My manager’s father had died, so the two of us left in the unit had to shoulder extra work. It’s sad, and unavoidable, and I was logging 12 hours of work every day, not counting the work I had to take home. I think it’s taking its toll on me - I hated it so much I was all but ready to ragequit. Just fucking once, I want to go home at exactly six pm.

I also lived on fast-food and coffee most of the time, as I didn’t have the time or patience for anything else. Times like these I miss real food and dinners at home with the family. But, of course, it passes once I think about how much I value my independence, however much I suck at taking care of myself.


Hannibal. I’ve been meaning to talk about Hannibal but I keep putting it off. Seriously, it’s one of the best shows I’ve seen in a while. There’s something different about it, not just the, uh, cannibalistic habits of the titular character. The cinematography, the gore, the sublime dreamscapes and the (sometimes) cheesy dialogue all work together for a feast of the senses! You could almost taste the people Hannibal cooks, really. Also, I love just how creative they are with the murders! “Elevating murder to art,” they say. Hot damn.

Plus all the overt references to Stanley Kubrick and The Shining really get to me. Like this one. And this! I actually jumped around a bit at Episode 7 and ROOM 237 omfg.

Endeavour. If anybody’s looking for a detective series to watch, as Elementary just finished (WITH FLYING COLORS) and Sherlock won’t be back for a while, might I suggest Endeavour, a four-part British miniseries, and a prequel to the long-running Inspector Morse show?

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Endeavour Morse is a young Detective Constable for the Oxford City police in the 1960s. I liked how they didn’t try to modernize Morse, as it would be very easy to do so, but instead, kept him in an Oxford where teenage girls have posters of the Beatles on their walls, and garages showcase Jaguar Mark IIs for their customers. Moreover, as it’s set in the university town of Oxford, and being an Oxford drop-out himself, Morse gets to solve classy murders involving poetry and opera. It’s a lovely show, quite honestly.

There’s only a pilot and a four episode series so it’s very easy to catch up! Of course, afterwards, the inevitable loss, but it’s worth it. Also, Morse is constantly making confused/slightly offended faces like these:

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I'll stop now before I post every single cap I have of his adorbs face.

I'm also thinking of watching Star Trek into Darkness sometime this week, hmmm, if I could.
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2013-05-03 03:39 pm

book post # idk

I haven't been reading stuff lately and that makes me a bit sad. There's around 3 books that I'm stuck halfway through, but I just can't seem to pick them up and finish them. Hmm.

Nevertheless, I've been able to write and draw something, so that's good, we're getting back in the game. The other day I bought a couple of books too, as if I'm not already drowning in them. Sorry for the crappy picture.

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I wandered into a book sale and found Caleb Carr's The Angel of Darkness! I've been looking for this book since I read The Alienist some years ago, and I finally found a copy omg. That really made my day. Here was my description of The Alienist from this:

...which has got to be one of my favorite Victorian-era America novels of all time. There's a serial killer on the loose whose prey of choice are boy whores. And he cuts them up Jack the Ripper style. And the protagonist is an avant-garde psychiarist by the name of Laszlo Kriezler. And he's got a youngish crime reporter as a narrator Watson-style. What's not to love?

Also picked up Michael Crichton's The Lost World, not to be confused with ACD's The Lost World, because I read Jurassic Park once upon a time and it was fun. I have never finished ACD's though. Maybe someday.

Lastly, I now have the two volumes of Skyworld! Expect some fannish thoughts on it later, I've only read the first one and I'm bursting with ideas, complaints and arguments. 

Ending this with LLAP because STAR TREK UGH
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2013-04-02 06:06 pm

dreams, easter holidays

I don’t usually remember my dreams. I can count, on one hand, the dreams I can recall, three of those because I wrote a paper on dreams and my dream senses were probably heightened. The most recent one I remember had space and Barack Obama turning into an alien.

But the other night I dreamt of teeth again. I’ve had dreams about teeth maybe twice before, and they both felt scarily real. One has me standing in front of a mirror, my teeth falling into my hands as I struggle not to let them flush down the drain. The latest has me finding my teeth were all crooked, like something from a Walking Dead zombie, yellowed and cracked.

The strangest thing is, whenever this happens, my thoughts as I lay dreaming are mostly “Oh I have to go to the dentist again” as if falling yellow zombie teeth were quite normal stuff that happens every other year! It’s crazy how collected I am in those dreams, when in real life I would be freaking out because I hate dentists. I’d take hospitals and doctors any day, man, any day. Hospitals can be fun. Dentists. Can. Never. Be.

Another thing, I always wake up whenever I dream this. I wake up alarmed not just because it’s scary, but also because of a superstitious paranoia. See, old people around here say, that when you dream of teeth falling out, something bad would happen to somebody you love. And to counter it you’d have to bite a piece of living wood, not just any furniture, a living breathing piece of plant. I’m not taking any chances, so you can guess how many times I’ve ran out of my dorm, in the middle of the night, looking for a freaking tree/shrub/whatever to bite.

I looked it up once before, and I think they say teeth dreams may mean insecurity, uncertainty for something in the future. That may very well be, you know, because uncertainty is my default state nowadays, but I’m not much of a psychoanalyst to say it is so clearly.


I hope everyone had a good Easter holiday! I didn't accomplish anything at all, I just sat around catching up on series and playing video games. I haven't played in a long time, so that was nice. Basically:

- I saw three episodes of VIKINGS and that was a freaking mistake, I didn't need another fandom in my life huhuuu. It's about Vikings raiding the English coasts and taking church treasures and priests back home. All the Vikings are really hot tbh. Ragnar Lothbrok (Travis Fimmel) laughs at the face of anything, gosh I just love how he smiles even when they're in deep shit, and his wife, Lagertha (Katheryn Winnick) is a badass shieldmaiden.spoilers! )

- Caught up to Broadchurch, all except the most recent one, David Tennant remains the light of my life, the journalists still infuriate me and I don't want Argus Filch to be the killer ugh

- Finished Spartacus S1 and everybody just keeps on dying whyy

- I watched Jesus Christ Superstar again last Good Friday, twice! Once with the music, and another with the commentaries on. I just really love that movie. Carl Anderson was wonderful and I can't help but agree with his Judas on things. He makes very good points, like how Jesus' followers were blind, with too much heaven on their minds; and the bottle of perfume! It's a source of endless frustration with me, because yes, I know that there'll always be poor in the world, but can we at least try to help them? Jesus I don't understand.

- Played Skyrim, I haven’t had that much fun with games in a while

- The worst thing about Borderlands 2 is I can’t randomly save and that sucks when my laptop decides to crash all the time, this never happens with Skyrim wtf am I doing wrong
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2013-03-25 11:20 am


My dad had an appendectomy last week. He was in the hospital for around 3 days but he’s okay now, he’s been moving around and itching to drive like nothing happened. Thank god we have health insurance because the hospital bills were crazy. I mean, really? You’re just going to cut off a finger-size bit of the intestine that doesn’t have any recognizable function and the procedure doesn’t even take more than 30 minutes and you charge that much? I just don’t know. Not everyone can afford the price of health. And it’s sad.

I’d like to think that things would change this coming election but that’s idealistic. We can’t even pass a reproductive health bill without the Church harping on its immorality. Sometimes I love my country and sometimes I hate it so much, which is more often nowadays.


Also, I drew dragonnns! It's been so long since I last drew anything so I'm happy they came out pretty well. I was breaking in a new sketchbook haha.

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I'm so excited about so many dragons: Game of Thrones is back on March 31, THERE ARE NEW DESOLATION OF SMAUG BEHIND THE SCENES OMG THRANDUIL AND LEGOLAS, aaand the Trese thing I may or may not be drawing.

'Til later, guys :))
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2013-03-14 09:51 am

science fiction double feature

Bit of a life update or something:

My housemates are really pissing me off. They’re relatively new, compared to three of us who’ve been living here for about 3-4 years and know each other’s piss-off buttons and the like. But I don’t think that’s any excuse because they’ve been here more than six months already.

We hardly talk to each other, but we share a bathroom, and if there’s one thing I’m really obsessive about, it’s bathroom cleanliness. Seriously, if and when I get my own place, everywhere is gonna be a mess of paper and take-out, except the bathroom and the sink. I keep the bathroom clean. I don’t even wait for the landlady to come and clean, I clean the floor, the walls, the bowl, everything, because I can’t stand a dirty bathroom.

probably TMI )


Books I’ve read, recently (there are SPOILERS):

Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep, Philip K. Dick. Rick Deckard is a bounty hunter. He hunts androids, or “andys”, who escape to Earth from the Martian colony, and retires them. Stuff happens and he has to hunt down 6 of the new Nexus-type brains, armed only with the Voigt-Kampff empathy scale to differentiate the android from the human. The story inspired films such as Blade Runner and Total Recall.

There’s a lot of interesting material in this story. First is the silence. Most of the people on Earth have gone on to live on Mars to escape the dust, which apparently causes brain damage and even death in the long run. One character lives alone in an apartment building outside the city, and when he turns off the TV, the surrounding silence threatens to engulf him, like something alive. I think I read an experiment somewhere, of a room that does not absorb sound, and that people can’t stay there for long for fear of going mad. We don’t usually give thought to the background sounds of everyday life, but imagine if there wasn’t anything left. What would happen?

Another was the lack of empathy in androids. Basically, these androids look just the same as human beings, and you wouldn’t know if he/she was an android at all unless you test them. The androids in Do Androids Dream can feel, emotions like panic and fear and even happiness. But they fail to empathize with other living things and that’s their defect. There’s a really chilling scene where they find a spider (animals/insects of all kinds are endangered) and proceed to cut off its legs, because they were curious what it needs eight legs for.

The thing is, you want to root for the andys, because they’re fleeing from slavery in another planet. But then, Dick shows you how different they are from real human beings, how screwed up they are, and how they can never be like us. The problem is, as said in the book, there is a percentage of people, real people, who cannot feel empathy, and the test can’t distinguish from that. You’ll only find out after you’ve shot them.

I personally prefer my androids developing personalities and feelings in the long run. Like David in AI. The andys here, however having personalities and rudimentary feelings, are treated as the other because they don’t have that human trait, empathy. And this lack of empathy makes it okay to hunt you down. David from Prometheus is a good example of this cerebral, sentient being. And HAL9000 too, of course.

Rating: 7/10, would recommend to anyone who likes androids and those wanting to watch Blade Runner. I understood that movie so much more afterwards.

The War of the Worlds, HG Wells. Cylinders fall from Mars and in it are Martians set to conquer the world. The events are seen through the eyes of an ordinary 19th century philosopher/professor and involves a lot of hiding and running from the Martians using dog carts and horses.

One thing I realized after reading it through, was that it can be read as a colonial/imperialist metaphor. I’m not sure about Wells’ stand on this but considering England, 1890s, British Empire, I think it’s safe to say that he was well aware of it. If so, the Martians are the imperialists, and the human race is the colonized country.

For example, the artilleryman, friend of the narrator, imagines a possible future with the Martians in charge. They won’t kill everybody, just enough to make a point. And the remaining peoples will flourish with the Martians, who would fatten them up (for food, the Martians drink men’s blood), and use them for entertainment, like pets. And soon enough, these people would forget everything before the coming of the Martians and be satisfied with the way things were. Sounds very colonialist, doesn’t it?

But, the major difference with this and real life is, the Martians are defeated. By bacteria and pathogens native to our soil. Because apparently they don’t have that in Mars. I would argue that it’s different from the way it worked IRL, because the coming of the conquistadors brought and spread diseases from which the native populations had no immunity against. Like the case with the Maya, and the Aztecs, and other peoples around the globe. I haven’t heard of any case where the conquerors fall prey to the diseases of the native land, although there may be a few. Here's a lecture on it if you're interested, I'm still downloading it though, I'll listen later.

EDIT: There are cases of the opposite! Like apparently, syphilis, for example. Still, that did not decimate the colonialist populations like smallpox and measles, though.

They don’t have that in Mars, bollocks. Of course they have bacteria. And the more probable ending would be a worldwide Martian plague bringing the planet to its knees. But yeah, it’s a scifi story, I concede anything could happen.

Rating: 6/10, if only for the hilariousness of the 1890s people and general mass hysteria. +1 because it made me cry a bit on the THUNDER CHILD chapter. Yeah, go read.

I am halfway through The Great Gatsby and it’s really great. It’s my first time reading this bc I’m not American, though.

PS: Habemus Papam Franciscum! Yeah.

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2013-02-26 04:48 pm



So at least my workmate is a decent human being and offered to have it fixed, thank god. The viruses are gone, and most of the files were salvaged. But there's still like 20GB unaccounted for and I can't remember what's missing? Hmm, if I can't remember it then probably it's not that important?

My brother's flying to South Korea tomorrow for an exchange program. That's a WHOLE YEAR he's going to spend in Korea! I'm real jealous and I'm actually gonna miss him because he's like, one of the handful of people I talk to in real life. He's a film major, and I like movies, and we talk about movies a lot. He's also my theater buddy.

Lastly, I read the WORST NEWS this morning and wow, it just ruined everything. I hate DC and Grant Morrison and this was a pretty cheap move. I'm going to elaborate on this later when I'm not really angry and unspeakably sad.
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2013-01-25 04:56 pm
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birthday anxiety

Yesterday was probably the most stressful birthday I've ever had in recent memory. And all I really wanted for a birthday was some peace and quiet, to lie around with a good book and a cup of coffee and just be a total lazy slob for a day.

I don't usually celebrate my birthday, but as I have a job and coworkers now, I felt obliged to treat them out, or something. And I had absolutely no idea how to go about this so I've spent the whole of last week fretting and being a huge neurotic ass. I looked for deliveries online, and as I hated phones with a passion, I opted to place an order and taste-test in person.

And then next day, I couldn't concentrate because I was so anxious about all kinds of stuff, like a) would the delivery come on time, b) won't they get lost, c) would they come at all, d) I HATE THIS SO MUCH GOD LET'S JUST GET THIS DAY OVER WITH

Moral of the story is, I'll never be an events organizer.

I wanted to unwind afterwards so I went to a mall after work. I thought I'd buy clothes or new shoes but decided against it and bought three books before my superego finds out and tells me not to. Brought home Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep by Philip K. Dick, The Road by Cormac McCarthy and The Silmarillion by JRR Tolkein (because I'm seriously going through a Hobbit withdrawal!!). I'm all set for my weekend! (And the weekend after that, and after that!)

This was a card I got from the company. I know it was generic but I was still real touched.

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I'll spend this weekend being a lazy slob and marathoning the LOTR trilogy!!

Oh and thanks to everybody who greeted me; I haven't been on facebook to reply yet but thanks so much! ♥♥
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2012-11-21 06:03 pm

of sales and clouds

A bit overdue but, last Sunday, my brother and I went to the last day of the National Bookstore Warehouse Sale. It was a bit of an overwhelming experience, because we both didn't know where it was (we took a cab and felt really wasteful), and I honestly did not expect it to be in an actual fourth-floor warehouse! There was a lot of people and boxes and boxes of books and other goods, all priced down for the holidays. Whenever a staff opened another box, people would flock and fight over its contents like Battle Royale or something. Some had boxes full to the brim - perhaps they owned a bookstore too, that's the only explanation. I met some old school friends from UP too. I managed to pick up a few things...
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- Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell audiobook - I'm not really into motivational stuff, but it's 7 CDs for P100 (around $2.5), that's a bargain.
- Pacific Rims, Rafe Bartholomew - Basketball! In the Philippines! I've long wanted this book alright.
- Inseparable: Desire Between Women in Literature, Emma Donoghue - OH YES. My roommate was a bit scandalized by the pictures, but I fail to see it, haha.
- Dancing in the Dark: A Cultural History of the Great Depression, Morris Dickstein - Woops, my love for this era is showing...
- The Aeneid, Virgil - S C R E A M I NG
- Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte - P50! I really lucked out on this, it's a very pretty copy.
- How to Read Literature Like a Professor, Thomas Foster - I'm reading it now and it's both funny and informative?
My brother the ass bought a Gio Ponti design book for P500, and made me pay for it. Ponti, more like Ponzi, I thought this was a sale.
Anyway, my review for Smaller and Smaller Circles is almost finished - it became a paper somewhere along the way and I really want to add references but I can't find what I want. Also, I started this last weekend.

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2012-11-19 03:37 pm

on time for christmas

Just got back from a company-wide General Assembly and it seems like we'd be getting a bonus this month aside from the Christmas bonus! Yes, just in time for the gift season! I'll have to plan all this carefully though, since it's my first Christmas with a salary of my own. There's friends, aunts, uncles, little nieces and nephews and Mommy and Ma and Pa and the bros.

Is this the life of the adult yet, because I'm still not feeling it.
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2012-10-24 06:04 pm

coffee-high blogging

 So the things I have so far done in bullets:
  • Finished The Casual Vacancy! Somebody talk to me, that wasn’t a happy book…
  • Finished Suits S2 in a weekend ahahahaaa. It was FANTASTIC!! The last episode did have some weird where-the-hell-did-this-come-from moments but overall it was pretty damn enjoyable.
  • HOW AWESOME ARE THE FIRST TWO EPISODES OF THE WALKING DEAD?? I really really hope they sustain this much gore and energy and badassery! (I was all but ready to give up after S2 but this restored my faith thank zombies.) ALSO MICHONNE!!!
  • I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT DOWNTON ABBEY OK, JFC I NEVER CRIED THAT MUCH ON A SINGLE EPISODE KFJALFKJASD;FLK. All I want is to stand on a cliff, hold up a fist and scream JULIAN FELLOWES!!!! as the night wind screams back at me.
  • Still wondering whether to read 2001 A Space Odyssey or watch the movie first.
  • I have tickets for the Ruroken showing!!!!!
  • Also, very excited for TRESE 5!!
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2012-10-11 05:49 pm

blogging in

I'm trying to organize my blogs into a more coherent Internet web (if there was ever such a thing). Right now I have:
3 tumblr usernames omg what
one is my personal blog, meaning the one I always use
two is a fan-artblog I never update
three is new and supposed to be an artblog too i guess
1 Multiply I have all but forgotten
(plus fb and twitter)

I want to make a book review blog somewhere, and I'm thinking of either making a new blog or changing my dreamwidth into one. I'm not sure how to do this hmmm what to do...
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2012-10-03 02:48 pm

Casually Vacant

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Ehehehee I have it and didn’t need to pay for it :) I somehow roped my aunt to buy it for me ahahaa

I'm almost through the first 'act' now and it's really different from the Harry Potter books - for one thing, words like fuck and cunt and penis are scattered all around (I was not expecting that offhand penis comment thing). The writing style uses more descriptions of beautiful old Pagford too, probably to lure us into a false sense of security. It's third-person limited, we go in and out of half a dozen characters, all of whom seem to be related to each other. It's a bit confusing and I'm not invested on any of them yet, but I'm curious enough to find out what the secrets are in this outwardly picturesque little town.

I read my hardbounds ‘naked’ to preserve the jackets. It’s real pretty naked too.

Now I have a problem. I'm reading The Casual Vacancy while twenty-plus books are still waiting for me to touch them ugh. Most of them are classics because /gasp/ I am a snob. I got most of these from booksales for P30! I love booksales...

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1. The Once and Future King, TH White
2. El Filibusterismo, Jose Rizal
3. On the Origin of Species, Charles Darwin
4. 101 Stories on the Philippine Revolution, Ambeth Ocampo
5. Smaller and Smaller Circles, FH Batacan
6. The Handmaid's Tale, Margaret Atwood
7. Dubliners, James Joyce
8. 2001 A Space Odyssey, Arthur C. Clarke
9. 2010: Odyssey Two, Arthur C. Clarke
10-11. Sherlock Holmes The Complete Novels and Stories Volume I and II, AC Doyle
12. The Red Badge of Courage and Four Stories, Stephen Crane
13. Heart of Darkness and The Secret Sharer, Joseph Conrad
14. Hamlet, William Shakespeare
15. Light Thickens, Ngaio Marsh
16. Frankenstein, Mary Shelley
17. The House of Silk, Anthony Horowitz
18. Star Wars Heir to the Empire, Timothy Zahn
19. Death of a Colonial, Bruce Alexander
20. Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, trans. Burton Raffel
21. The Curse of the Pharaohs, Elizabeth Peters
22. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
23. To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
24. Gulliver's Travels, Jonathan Swift

And I've only really finished four of them,
1. Emma, Jane Austen. Half the time I was screaming at Emma 'you are so wrong! don't assume anything! can't you see can't you see!?'
2. The Tell-Tale Heart and Other Writings, Edgar Allan Poe. Powerful and evocative, Poe is truly the grand master of dread. Also DUPIN!!
3. Crime and Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky. Perfection!! Applause for this!! I need more Dostoyevsky!!!
4. American Gods, Neil Gaiman. Another instant favorite. I had to adjust myself to read contemporary lit ahaha you know my preference for Dickensian wandering sentences.

Help why couldn't there be more hours in a day! I desperately want to read everything oh god for shame this does not even include the Wolfe and Wimsey and Agatha Christie ebooks oh no

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2012-09-14 12:28 pm

a rant

Hey, man, I hope you realize that although we've known each other 3, 4 years now, I don't appreciate it that the first thing you say to me, to greet me when we meet after a long time is "Legs". Maybe you mean it as an off-hand remark but I hope you realize that I felt weird and violated because my name is not legs and fuck it are you a child have you never seen legs before? Maybe you also did not realize, though I hope you did, that my smile was a grimace, I did not greet you back, and I was ready to kick you in the nuts.

I don't get it, we're not even close, we barely say two words to one another, yet you're the only one to call me that. You're a cool guy, but that behavior was firmly on uncool territory. Like the Doctor calling Amy 'Legs' and River 'Mrs. Robinson' in that one Moffat episode (I almost barfed at that because WHY WOULD THE DOCTOR SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT).

My father is the only guy allowed to comment if I wear something short because he is my father alright.


In other news, yesterday was fun! It was great to see AME people again. Got to bond with old mems and new mems alike. Also after 10 months of waiting, I finally have my diploma!
crossesandguns: japan in shock (emotion: shock)
2012-01-12 02:29 pm



I have an exam scheduled for an HR post at IBM tomorrow. The call woke me up this morning and I was groggy and a bit confused and I think the phone screener was a bit confused herself. I just wish my faculties would be in peak condition by tomorrow morning.

Speaking of which, I do not have the slightest idea how to get to Eastwood. I'm just, I don't know, I'M GOING TO FUCKING WING IT!

Holy crap I'm really excited/anxious/nervous and I suck at interviews in general because I never could remember anything particularly interesting to relate. I have the mind of a goldfish when it comes to personal or social experiences: in one ear, out the other.

Anyway, wish me luck! I hope I do well, and that I don't figure in any accidents because it's Friday the 13th.

If I could get a job for my birthday it would be the awesomest thing ever.
crossesandguns: england painting his name (hetalia: england)
2012-01-02 01:30 am
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A New Year's Wish

Happy New Year to everybody!

I know I've neglected everything of mine online this past few months, thus I've been trying to revive them. Let's start with some resolutions!

1. Get a job. I feel guilty bumming around my parents' house doing nothing at all, and I need to get out of the house more or risk being a full-fledged hikikomori. But before that, fix that resume first!

2. Connect with people. At the rate I'm going, I'll be the loneliest person in the world in five years. Not only have I ignored Facebook and LJ, I've left my phone un-charged for two weeks before Christmas. I'm a horrible friend and it's so hard to contact me most of the time so I need to put a lot of effort into it.

3. Draw, paint, write. It's sad that just when I have all the time in the world, I can't make use of it wisely. I need to sit down and make time for these creative pursuits. But let's make it more concrete! Two paintings/drawings a month should be okay.

4. Go out with friends. Shit, I'm beginning to feel like some grumpy old loser. Watch a movie, go to cons, don't fucking wimp out on parties, eat out, karaoke, dance, swim! I don't want to get to 30 without getting drunk even once. (Ok, that may not be such a good idea.)

5. Go to church more regularly. I've been through a lot religion-wise, but I think it's a good idea to reconnect with the spiritual.

2011 was a good year for my geek self. Here's to hoping 2012 would be a better one for my social and economic self :)

(My mother's crying over the Downton Abbey special I haven't watched yet haha. Also, holy moly Sherlock airs today! Ugh torrents torrents--)
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2011-12-09 02:13 am

Something Old

Found some old stuff.

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Feelin' a bit down lately.